What is the word, i am not getting it.I am telling you my English has become worse in the last few days.I cant even remember the casual words which i used almost daily.Then, how can i write something like a blog.This word frightens me.Lets call it " An Open Letter To My Friends" .I knew you will say- " You can write anshul, but how? i have to write it not you.
Okay sorry for being so harsh. Let me brush up my mind.
Got it,yes I got it.It is inspection,No.retro Something. retrospection? Yes, Retrospection,thats the word.
I was searching for a word which means going through your past experience and Retrospection fits well.
I can validate it with its dictionary meaning.
Retrospection-The act of recalling things past, esp in one's personal experience.
Actually. this personal experience part has a wide spectrum because personal to me means everyone attached to me esp. my friends.So,here after so many days i am thinking of writing about Retrospection, how life has changed for me,for my friends.
Till eight months back, we were on the top of the world.Our group had almost any and every type of talent(don't raise your eyebrows like this guys,yes you had). Whether it was Naveen's shayari or bairagi's hi-fi Vocab. Sometimes it was Siddharth's D2 thoughts , sometimes Dhabas's out of the box phrases.On one hand Hittu's sense of humour entertained us ,while on the other Sandy's passion for his love amazed us. Gurdeep's timelines were over hyped and my zehers were annoying. But instead of all this, we were happy and enjoying. Not only because we were in college,free from any tension but because we were together.
बड़ी मुश्किल से सजाया था ये आशियाना |
हवा ने रुख बदली, क्या टूट गया हमारा याराना ?
This question echoes in mind after eight months since we left college. When our college ended, we all scattered over different places as the debris after the blast. Siddhu in pune, Dhabas in Mumabi, Bairagi in UK(not to be mistaken for United Kingdom,it's only Uttara kashi), Gurdeep in Jamshedpur, Me and Hittu in Gurgaon , Sandy in MP and Naveen in Gandhinagar(not ahmedabad guys).
Time has taken its toll and now we are entangled with our own lives. The bonding between us is still strong( at least i have this feeling).
I doubt all of us got what we expected from our lives. Naveen and Dhabas, took job in software industry, thinking they will get a core job soon. But they were not aware of the other unpredictable part of life.Hum Sochte kuch aur hain,ye jati kahi aur hai,ye zindagi,ye saali zindagi. As a result, they are in TCS and Accenture respectively as if they are in some alien land. I can't feel how they feel. Yet, they are happily working, even on Saturdays, Switching between various projects, learning the nuances of the industry which even does not belong to them.
Gurdeep, alone there in Jamshedpur, the most frustrated of all of us. His beloved left her, for whatever reason it was. After that, he does not talk to us of anything else. Yet,he has some hope due to which he is still trying.
You may think of Siddhu as the most lucky guy. Got Job in amdocs, then straight away went to Israel and now to one of the best cities Pune. But do all of know, how ridiculous was the life in Israel without proper Desi Meal. Time is money proverb was showed its illustration there because when you were late for a minute for a morning cab, you may lose yours day salary. He used to be a tanker in our college life but now why he has to struggle to empty 1 bottle of beer. Everyone of us knows the answer.
Bairagi, haan ji wahi apna chotu. He was an insomniac na,in college. Doyou know, why he goes to bed now-a-days so early,why he drinks so much, how he lives without electricity and mobile network for days.He avoided travelling in buses but now he travels continuously.Why? You are smart enough to figure it out.
For Me and hittu, Yes, we are together and a bit privileged as well but do you know how it feels to work 12 hours a day but still wondering, was that necessary, what was i doing. Working for hours can only give superficial satisfaction but what about the internal bliss. How it feels when you know the work you are doing is so insignificant, that it's only a waste of time. When you know what can you do but you dont get opportunity for that. It hurts, more than anything else.
We can think that the life of Sandy, our playboy, must be very easy because of his job in LnT, then we are totally wrong.The initial phase of that job is so taxing that one might think of leaving it.
Guys, take a break and just think of what i meant to say. I am not being pessimistic or cynic about life. We should be happy for what we have but at the same time must be doing something for this revered institution called Friendship.
Couples celebrate second honeymoon to get back the happy memories. Can't we plan something like another Holiday Trip. If we all can't do it now, we can't do it altogether. It will be so close yet so far.Despite of all these, I have faith.
कितने भी कब्र बना ले खुदा, हमें दफ़न करना आसां नहीं,
कितने भी दीवारें बना ले , हमें जुदा करना आसां नहीं|
A lot more to say but.....
